If You Could Only See lyrics

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do

If you could only see how blue
Her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Well you got your reasons
And you got your lies
And you got your manipulations
They cut me down to size

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do

If you could only see how blue
Her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Seems the road less traveled
Shows happiness unraveled
And you got to take a little dirt
To keep what you love
That's what you gotta do

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
You're stretching out your arms
To something that's just not there

Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do

If you could only see how blue
Her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
Sayin' you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

If you could only see the way she loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do

If you could only see how blue
Her eyes can be when she says
When she says she loves me

PAIN

Pain hurts.

putting on a show of being strong.

not wanting anything to do with the rest of the world

emotions are wacked!

feeling like you're not good enough,

not sure what you have done to up set so many people

feeling like a shots going through you

feeling numb from everything except the pain

feeling hurt,

feeling useless

pain all around,

not fitting in with the world
pain following me around

pain always next to me

dont want to do anything anymore
whats the use?

whats the point of doing anything anymore

remember when you said you would go into depression if something were to happen to us?

that happened to me

so bad that it hurts

so much pain

there hasnt been a day that it hasnt hurt

almost a year since i heard you say "i love you" for the first time

you promised to love me forever

promised that i would be yours and that we'll make it through anything

guess we were wrong.

..................pain.................broken...................dont want to go on anymore..................:'( you had to leave me didnt you? you slammed everything in my face and slammed it all back at me.

you told me you loved me

but i was wrong to trust you....

i didnt lie to you saying that i would love you forever

i will always love you

will always hold onto you

as hard as it try to get rid of you....

you're still here

I dont know how i've made it this long..........

should have gone along time ago.

its all painful

how could this happen?

just kill me already

memories

memories last a life time,
things we do impact others,
things we say we can never take back,
people do come and people do go,
why do we do what we do?

people help others while others hurt eachother,
the moments only last for a few moments
while memories last forever,
we only last a few years,
so make the most of the time here,
we dont have time to make enemies
we have time to make the best of life.

people change.
people come
people go
people hurt others
people help others
but memories stay the same.
reguardless of what we do in life we can
never change the memories that we have created.

another day another moment another chance

Another day on the planet, another day alive, another day to make moments to count, and another moment to have a chance at life.
Having the opprotunity to find out if i can make it through this life and make the best of it. So excited to find out where life will take me. I was asked what i would do with the skills i have. I didnt have an answer for that question apart from that i will just let my skills and abilities take me where ever it leads me. I have one chance to make the best of this life and thats what i'm going to do. That is scary yet exciting on where i will be in 5, 10, 20, even 40 years from now. Will i still be here in the US or will i be across the world helping out with those who need it? Will i be rich or will i be poor? can i be only one or all of the above? Life is scary but you have to find out what is going to happen in the end. Follow the path on which God has instructed you to follow and we will all go far. I have been told many times that the decisions that we our selves make effect everyone more that we think.

sad

feeling alone
feeling scared
people talking to you but wat about
you don't feel great
you can't tell what they say
so you feel scared and alone
feeling sad
feeling blue
never knowing wat they say
people say things about you behind your back
if you ask they'll lie
feeling frightened
feeling alone
untrusted by others
people peeking into your business
feeling betrayed
so sad
big deep pit in you
nothing can fill
feeling like nothing
feeling sad, blue, even depressed
some one I can trust please help
I need some one I can trust to talk to
feeling nothingness and sad

Remembering you

I'd love you in the moring even when I'm sleepy
I loved you during one missed call
and still think its sad and romantic that I wear
upon my wrist a token of effection from you
I see the small reflection
your kisses are like spring
something I'll never forget
something i'l look forward to
almost always wet
you grasp my hand and don't let it go
sometimes you play with my fingers
even after you've let go
the feeling still lingers
I love you with all my heart
and this is for real
not even this many words can begin
to express the way I feel
you mean the world to me
thats what i've been getting at
I love you for who you are
not for what you try to be
no matter what
never forget that I love you

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